Indonesia for Cleaning Government, Is it possible?

Assalamu'alaikum..

Before you read this post, I'll warn you first that this post based on my experience. I won't talk about the theory. Let's talk about theory in class, but not in here. 

After the second president of Indonesia fall down in 1998, Indonesia citizens wish to live happily with something that we called democracy. Some of us do believe that we are free from the Suharto's tyranny. We looks alike live prosperously, but it's all fake. We have a lot of debt that we weren't think about it before. Then now, Indonesia government still dream about a clean government. 

I was graduated from college in 2010. Some of my friends were accepted as a civil servant in local or department pure by their skill. So did I, after tried twice, alhamdulillah i was accepted in local government. It means that our government 'almost' seriously want to create a clean government like we always heard in college. If that so, why i said almost? Hmm.. i will never ever said like this if i am not work inside the government. 

Creating a clean government, for me, is like we build beautiful dream when we are sleeping. It's 99,99% impossible. we have a good system, appreciate it. But the 'person' inside the system, hmm.. I'm not pretty sure. It depends on 'the man behind' it. Have you ever watched Dae Djang Geum drama? If yes, you know what i mean. There is a person or some people with the same purpose as a main player. It's good if the purpose not only give advantage only to those people but they really work for country. But how it they have bad purpose? 

And they never ever touch by independent institute or finance inspector because they have power. Not as long as they are still in first command. 

So, let's still dreaming about clean government.. It's beautiful outside but you'll never know what happened inside. Do not believe with media since they sell news to those who can pay more..

Dan Saat inipun tiba

March, 14th 2014

Dan akhirnya, bulan inipun tiba..

I'll leaving the baby for about 4 months. Its hard, really hard untill my tears fall down when i ask permission with my workmate. Honestly, I never thought will leave him 2 months di usianya yg masih bayik. First I left him when he was 21days old and now in his 7 months old.

I will miss him soooo much.. T_____T

Be a good boy,

be a health boy,

listen to ur dad and grandma..

 

Mama loves you son.. Adyaraka

"Lebaran Pertama" 1413 H

Hi guuuuys !!

Waaah.. Rasanya pengen bales dendam setelah lama ngga nge-Blog. Liat history tulisan yg tahun 2012 ini kok sepi banget, hiks.. Padahal followernya nambah lumayan dan belum sempet blogwalking dan folbek juga. Maapkeeun ya teman-teman.. :')

Insyaallah mulai hari ini akan lebih rajin lagi.. Semangkaaa!! \(^o^)/

Sebenernyaa, I have good news today, but i cant tell you all right now. Its secret thing. Tapi rasanya tuh seneeeeng banget. Dari tadi pagi pas terima kabar gembira itu dari seorang teman, muka langsung senyum-senyum sendiri. Padahal sedari tadi kerjaan numpuk, banyak masalah di orderan yang harus stuffing hari ini sementara containernya ngga fully loading, masalah dokumen nya lah.. Buut.. Its all gone. Alhamdulillaaah.. Allah memang Maha Baik.. :)

Balik lagi ke tema postingan saya ya guuuys..

Judulnya lebaran 1413 H, itu artinya lebaran beberapa waktu kemarin. Jadi ceritanya ini adalah lebaran pertama kali bareng suami dan bareng keluarga suami pula. Agak sedih sih karena biasanya kumpulnya bareng keluarga dan sepupu2 di rumah. Tapi seneng juga karena dari dulu sering berangan-angan untuk lebaran bareng suami.

Pada awalnya, aku sama suami sempet bingung mau mudiknya naek apa. Kalo hari biasa sih naek bus EKA yang jurusan Jogja (rumah suamiku di Magelang -red). Tapi kok kayanya ngga banget deh kalo naek bus, secara kita musti ke garasi EKA yang notabene lokasinya di daerah pinggiran Surabaya Selatan. Sementara kita tinggal di Mojokerto dan untuk ke Surabaya mesti naek bus ekonomi selama satu setengah jam. Itu pun pulangnya ngga bisa pagi karena hari sabtu aku dan suamiku masih kerja, jadi baru bisa cap cus sekitar jam 2an. Nah sampe di garasi eka itu paling cepet jam setengah 4, dari situ perjalanan sampe Jogja biasanya sekitar 7 jam kalo ngga macet. Dari Jogja, kita biasa di jemput sama keluarga suamiku dan butuh 1 jam lagi untuk sampe Magelang. Coba itung aja, buat pulang kampung di hari biasa aja kita butuh waktu sekitar 9jam setengah. Itu kalo ngga macet lhooo sodara-sodaraa.. Dan hebatnya, hari Minggu petang habis Maghrib kita udah say good bye balik lagi ke Mojokerto. Jangan tanya gimana capeknya..

Maka dari itu, lebaran ini kita memutuskan buat naek kereta. Tiketnya kita beli sebulan sebelum hari H. Belinya di Indom*ret, heheee.. karena kita udah denger desas desus kalo beli tiket di stasiun udah ngga kebagian. Alhamdulillah di Indom*ret tiketnya masih banyak. Untuk berangkatnya kita naik kereta cadangan lebaran karena kereta aslinya udah fully booked.

Gimana rasanya lebaran di rumah mertua??

Hmm.. agak ribet tarnyata.. soalnya di Magelang ada tradisi tiap kita sowan pasti makan. Kalo di rumah mah cuma makan cemilan biasa aja, kalo pas ada ketupat ya makan, ngga ada ya.. Pulaang.. ahahahaha.. Oh iya ribetnya itu bukan pas makan, kalo makan mah enak. Ribetnya itu pas nyiapin makanan. Meskipun yang nyiapin tetep Mamah mertua siih.. heheee.. aku cuma bantu cuci piring. Tapiii cuciannya numpuk banyak banget, secara sodara-sodaranya mertua ada beberapa yang dateng ke rumah. Sekali dateng langsung selusin jumlahnya, jadi yah harus nyiapin ini itu juga..

Ada satu lagi sih yang ngga biasa aku lakuin kalo lebaran di Mojokerto. Karena aku di rumah tinggalnya bareng nenek ato ibunya bapak dan nenekku ini adalah yang paling tua diantara sodara-sodaranya, jadi aku ngga perlu capek-capek sowan kesana kemari.Cukup duduk manis di rumah nungguin sodara-sodaraku dateng. Sementara di Magelang, karena sodara dari orangtuanya mertuaku masih ada, jadinya kita yang ngiter dan menjelang malem baru kelar. Prosesi sowan itu berlangsung selama 2hari, fiuuuuh..

Ini habis sungkem-sungkeman

My husband's brother lil' family

 Oh iyaa.. Pas pulang mudik kemarin, aku naik kereta Sancaka yang gerbong restorasinya dibatik. Ternyata ngga cuma gerbong restorasinya, dekorasi dalemnya juga dikasih wallpaper batik. Sayang poto2 nya ada di Hape semua dan lagi males transfer ke lepi, jadi ya kaga bisa kasih liat.

Ini salah satu poto yang aku grab dari fesbuk. Baguuuus kan batiknya.. Maapkeun ya gambarnya agak-agak kabur.. xoxooxo

 Minal aidin Wal Faidzin yaaa..

Mohon maaf lahir dan batin..

^^

I'm back

Assalamualaikum..

Woooaa.. been so looong-looooooong time ago since my last blog.
I miss my blog so much T.T. Honestly, I really miss my time did blog like in past, but I cant do that since now I'm busy with my current job and of course double job to be a house wife :)

Yeaaah, I've already married, officially on June 9th 2012. Alhamdulillaaah, we're "SAH" now :D
Its not easy enough for me to prepare my wedding, I mean everyone who wanna get married will be at the same situation like me. But, the most difficult thing was I'm not just thought about my wedding but also my father condition. He is not well enough and Im so scared if he couldnt attending my wedding :(
  
Thats why I couldn't do blogging at all for some months ago. I was just thought 3 words, my father, my wedding, and my job. Woooaaa.. thought that I was gonna be crazy that time. Too much stressed X_x

But alhamdulillah, thanks God its all done :')
My wedding was not that luxurious, but we're all very happy since my family, my best friend, and two of my best friends in college attended to my wedding. They came from Jogja and Surabaya. Thank youuu Alam & Faris.. :D :D

Not everything goes smoothly but I thank to God very much. I couldn't even think to prepare all the wedding stuff without my father. But my mother and my boyfie (my husband - red) always helped to set up everything. Although I knew that it was the most difficult time for her. But my mother looked strong and so tough. She could  help to prepare the wedding while taking care of my father. 

Many thanks for my husband too.. for his loving and caring.. and for understanding me of course.. I love you my man.. :* :*

And now, after 8 months, my father still in recovery period. We were decided to change the doctor about a months before my wedding. Alhamdulillaaah.. we are in a right way insyaallah (actually we were not sure enough with his last doctor)

Get well soon Daad..
We are all love you and wishing all the best for you.. :)
 

My Three Months Story

Assalamualaikum..

Hi All..!!

Its been loooong time no see.. And I miss my blog so much. I'm not go to any where, just right here, be a silent reader for almost 2 months. Yeah, maybe I'm not productive - I mean I write nothing on my blog, but I'm still checking it in my spare time. But I didnt have enough time to write something :(

There are so many accidents happened in this 3 months.. I'll tell you some.

From all, the accident on last January not only made me shock, but also my whole family and my boyfie family. My father got sick after visited Magelang -my boyfie's home. Tired, didnt get enough sleep, and so many thought maybe caused his diabet up and he suddenly got stroke in the morning after back to home.

We're so panic and worried at that time. Because my father refused to be taken to the hospital. He always said that he just fine and get well soon. We knew that he's not. He couldnt moved half of his left body and his mouth looked oblique. Its positively the sign of stroke.

After 3 days at home and my father condition getting worst, we called my father's friend. Alhamdulillah he helped us to persuade my father to go to the hospotal. My mother and I stayed there for about 2 weeks.  

And now, after about 3 months left. My father still learning how to walk. Altough his health not stabil yet, but his passion to get well is higher than before. We're pretty sure that insyaallah my father will get well sooner :)


Now we are trying alternative medicine since his condition healthier and if we just rely on physician treatment , its need a lot of money. I hope he will get well soon and can do all activity like before he sick. aamiin.. :')


Just my suggestion, if you have family or friend who got stroke too. Its better to take them to the hospital quickly, bcos the golden period for someone who get stroke about 6 hours. And be careful if you wanna give them drugs except the doctor's prescription. You should ask your doctor first.

"Sweet" things

Assalamualaikum all :)

It's been long time since my last post.

I'm still online, but too lazy posting something on my blog, hehee

But I did blogwalking, I'm interested in make up lately, so I'm too busy with gugling, reading beauty blog, and went to forums to get the best recommendation :)

I have a lot of "sweet" things today :*

baby rhino

baby lion, this is my fave :*

baby elephant

baby monkey

baby bird

Why I called them baby? because they have baby face, LOL

and their size are small too, not more than 10cm maybe

my boyfie brought those cute 'animals' from his office and gave it to me

yeaaaaay... I'm sooo happy ^^

aaaand last..

he also brought me some chocolates from dubai..

mmm.. I've never eat it before

And you know what? I think that I didn't like the taste

Its too sweet for me, maybe for other who like sweet, they'll like it :D

But I like those chocolate than malaysian chocolate

one day, my boyfie gave some for me, I forgot the brands

its mooooore sweet than chocolate above *o*

Actually, my fav still local brand chocolate : Monggo

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If you visit Jogja, dont forget to buy it :D

You can find in Mirota Kampus, Mirota Batik, CircleK or you can directly visit and buy at Moggo's factory in Kota Gede

But, now Monggo has been sold throughout Indonesia, visit the site to know more

ciao :D

Gift from God and you :)

About few weeks ago, I twit on my twitter account like this : May I luv tis oct. 

and now its like going real :)

Alhamdulillah.. berharap semuanya berkaah

Last friday, my boyfie came to my house. He had an interview with one of the biggest papper company in Indo.

Unfortunately, in that time, I was travelling to Bromo with my closed family and their friends from Holland until Friday nite (I'll post it maybe on my next post)

So, I could meet him on Saturday morning because I arrived about 1.30 AM

and he brought some presents for me, yeaaaaay \('o')/

my favorite chocolate from Jogja :)

my birthday present, si onyet item

Hooaaa, i really luv this onyet, its looks like my boyfie *ketawajahat :D :D :D

beside that, he also brought some my favorite cookies which made by his mom, nyuummmmy..

aaand, i gave something for him, because he could pass the interview and he moved to my hometown starts from Oct 15th 2011..

I knew its not suitable for worker man, but i just wanna give him something, maybe he can use it when he comes to my house every weekend maybeeee *ngarep :P

Alhamdulillaaah, thanks my greatest lord Allah SWT

Semoga dilancarkan semuanya dan jd berkah..

btw, have u ordered outwear from dressUP..?

if u havent ordered yet, cmon see our collection and order

Get 10% discount ladies..

*tetepngiklan, heheheeheeu

ciao \('o')/

a little story about me

Dear blogger friends.. How r u today..?

Semoga semuanya dlm keadaan sehat dan bahagia :)

hmm.. tiap mau posting mesti bingung mau cerita apa (-__________-)"

padahal sebelum pegang lepi udah ada ide mau cerita ini itu, heuheuheu.. kayanya emang gag bakat ada bakat nulis ni..

kalo gitu, kita share aja. Pengen tau ini, impian terbesar dr temen-temen blogger apa sih? Impian itu bisa cita-cita atau apa aja yang emang udah dikepengenin dr dulu.. Baik itu yang udah kesampaian maupun yang masih diangan2, hehee

Kalo aku, dr SMP aku udah pengen banget buka butik terus produksi sendiri. Jadi mulai dr desain sampe label baju semuanya pure from my self. Makanya sebenernya pengen banget dr dulu nerusin sekolah di jurusan Tata Busana. Tapi apa daya, orang tua terutama bapak ngga setuju. Maklum bapak berprofesi sebagai advokat, jadi anak-anaknya di"harus"kan kuliah di bidang yang sama. Alasannya sih karena udah ada koneksi dan kalo ada yang ngga ngerti jg bisa langsung tanya sm bapak.

Awalnya sih sempet nolak, terus bapak bilang kalo aku emang mau jd desainer bisa belajar lewat kursus2 tata busana. Ya sudahlah, saya pun akhirnya belajar jadi anak yg patuh dan mengambil jurusan yg sama dengan bapak :)

Tapi tetep, sampai aku lulus kuliah pun, cita-cita dr SMP itu pengen banget tercapai. Apalagi akhir-akhir ini, aku jd mulai hobi corat-coret lg, bikin desain lg. Terus juga ketika mulai ngeblog nemu blog2 desainer muda seperti Gda's Gallery, Ria Miranda, Dian Pelangi, dan masih banyak lagi yang kesemuanya tergabung dalam Komunitas Hijabers. Jadi makin termotivasi nie buat belajar ngewujudin baju2 yang sekedar coretan di atas kertas menjadi sesuatu yang nyata dan bisa nyaman dipake. 

Selain itu, karena beberapa kali beli di olshop, akhirnya tercetus ide buat jualan via onlen. Ngga tau sih nanti jadinya kaya gimana. Yang jelas tetep optimis moga aja ada yg beli. Kalaupun ngga ada yg tertarik kan bisa dipake sendiri, huks #jangan sampe deh :(

Persiapan pun dilakukan, dari mulai browsing model desain, desain label(kalo ini sampe ngambek2 minta pacarku bikinin, xoxo :p), sampe belanja kain. Bahkan atm ku sempet ketinggalan di meja kasir pas habis belanja, gara2 saking exitednya sampe lupa belum masukin atm ke dompet, huhuuuw.. alhamdulillah ketemu :)

Meskipun baru sebagian kecil itu aja yg udah dilaksanakan, ternyata kesimpulannya gag gampang jg ya mau bikin usaha, ngga ngebayangin yang usahanya sampe berjuta-juta #Fiuuuuh..

Wah panjang jg ceritanya, biasa gag pernah posting sepanjang ini di blog, heuheuheu.. maaf ya temen2, makasih sudah mendengar sedikit curahan hatiku (karena emang butuh support).

Beneran deh, kalo kita mau ngelakuin sesuatu, tapi ngga ada support, pasti berat banget ngejalaninnya. Yang udah dapet support kaya aku aja, masih sempet mikir "ah gag jadi ah" atau "nanti laku ngga ya?atau ngga usah jadi aja ya". 

Tapi ya Bismillah aja, niatnya baik, moga hasilnya juga baik, aamiin yaa robbal aalamiin :D

contoh desainku :)

ada bonus sketch desain yang insyaallah nanti diproduksi(aamiin) buat semua yg udah mampir di blogku, udah baca-baca, ngasih komen atau shoutbox, ataupun cuma ngeview, atau cm naikin traffic blog ku. Arigatou Gozaimashita ^^

Fashion Illustrator

Adore her so much.. She can drawing well and awesome.. Wanna be like her oneday ♥♥

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Visit here to know more about Sandra Suy.

Last, Happy fasting all and get a wonderful month of Ramadhan \o/

"Paint" in Luv

I always smile when I see these pics. Yes, its our pics, I mean my boyfie & I 

(ɔ ˘⌣˘)˘⌣˘c)

I made both pics before we had relationship. Not cute enough I think, but he likes his face pic and use it as his facebook pofile hohohoo.

Him

me

I used “Paint” program, because I cant use corel or other similar programs. Hufth, give up lha pokoknya, heheeee :p

Anyway, happy birthday sayaank.. although we cant celebrate it together with U’r family like a years ago, but I always pray the best for you.. and absolutely for we both..

Je t'aime pour toujours ♥♥

♥ After 4 months ♥

It’s June and I’m doing nothing with my blog. Poor blog. Huuufh... I should be more fire to write something on my blog. Do You know what's my biggest weakness..? I’ll always think that I haven’t something special to share with all of you -.-“

But forget it, in fact I have a blog, I must be proud to have it, and it’s time to post something again.. \o/ hahaa lebaaaay nyaaa..

Actually I got an award from Amel but I haven’t post it yet. I promise in my next post I’ll post it dear. Any way, thanks for giving me this award, that’s my second award, big hugs for youuuu J

And now, I’ll tell about something happened in a month ago.

My boyfie gave me a surprise. He suddenly came to my house in Mojokerto. I didn’t know that he would come b’coz in that time we had a problem. We fought and then I decided to break up. We weren’t sent a text like usually and we had bad conversation if we talked by phone. For that reason, he desperately came to fix up our relationship. By d’way, we’re LDR right now, and it’s almost 4 months  we’d never meet again T.T

Of course I was very happy b’coz I can see him again and forgot all the problems that caused we fought. He just stayed for 3 days and 2 nites. My parents also glad to see him again. More over, they invited my boyfie went to Surabaya.

We went to Surabaya the day after, visited Tunjungan Plaza first and then City of Tomorrow…

On the waaaaaaay :)

Citooo

That was a very great great great and wonderful day… Hope we can meet again soon ^^

♥ Surprise Anniversary ♥

Feb 25^th was my first anniv with my Boyfie. Yeeeeey… \0/

And I really happy b’coz Allah still give us a chance to make our relation more seriously than before. A year isn’t a short time for us, to know our personal and try to understand each other.

In this happiness day, my boyfie made something for me as a gift for our anniv. When I asked him, he just said that it will be unforgetable thing and he made it by himself. But I should wait for few days b’coz my boyfie sent it via Pos Indonesia #resikoLDR

But day after day, that package hadn’t come to my house yet. Aaaarrgghhhhhh….!

My boyfie said that it ought came 3 days later, but until almost 2 weeks and I haven’t receive it yet. And today, I woke up early morning like usually #heheheee and then I called the Mojokerto Post Office by phone. I told the receipt number to the post man who picked my phone and really hope that he can found my package. The post man asked me to send him message at 9 am b’coz he was very busy at that time.

But at 8 am, suddenly my dad called me from terrace and I walked out. Aaaaand… Taaadaaaa… A post man stood in front of my house with a big package ^^.

I forgot to take a pict for the package b’coz I was exited to open the box. After a few tired minutes, b’coz it’s really difficult to open the wood box and released some packs with a screwdriver, I saw The Gift. 

 

It looks like 2 people holding hands to each other and standing on the grass. Sooo sweeeeeet…

Tengkyu my hunniiiiiieee… :-*

Saayank, next time we make our dreaming house togetheer yaaa ^^

Kalo mikanya dibuka, jadinya kaya gini temaaand :))

And the additional gift is Kaskus sticker. Uugh I cant wait to stick it in my lovely lepi....

Happy 1st anniversary ♥♥

 Happy 1^st anniversary

Windu Widi Wicaksono & Dewi Setyosari

 

Hope our relationship get d’best happy ending story

And we can be together in a formal relationship soon

Aaammiiiinn… :-*

Selamat jalan Jogja

Walau kini kau tlah tiada tak kembali

Namun kotamu hadirkan senyummu abadi

Izinkanlah aku untuk s’lalu pulang lagi

Bila hati mulai sepi tanpa terobati

Salah satu lagu milik Kla Project tersebut selalu mengingatkanku dengan YOGYAKARTA, terutama ketika aku akan segera meninggalkan kota yang udah kuanggap sebagai tempat tinggal keduaku ini. Awal taun 2006 awal perjalanan kisahku di Jogja dimulai. Waktu itu untuk pertama kalinya, aku, masku, dan orang tuaku benar-benar menginjakkan kaki di kota ini. Bukan untuk liburan, tapi aku dan masku akan melakukan registrasi ujian masuk di salah satu perguruan tinggi negeri di sini. Namun sayang aku nggak lolos.. :'(

Aku pun belajar mati-matian agar bisa lolos SPMB (sekarang namanya udah ganti SNMPTN), dengan tujuan yang sama. Agar bisa lolos keterima di Fakultas Hukum di PTN tersebut. Bukan hanya karena PTN yang kutuju  merupakan salah satu PTN terbaik di Indonesia, tapi juga karena udah ngerasa nyaman dengan suasana Jogja. Apalagi ketika denger cerita masku yang habis registrasi mahasiswa baru, tentang Jogja, tentang mahasiswa di sana, dan lain-lain. Aduh kok kaya nya beda banget sama suasana PTN di Surabaya (FYI, waktu itu aku udah keterima salah satu PTN di Surabaya melalui jalur PMDK namun pengen nyoba peruntungan lagi buat daftar di PTN Jogja tersebut). Ketika aku registrasi di Surabaya, ngga ada satu mahasiswa pun yang orasi dengan mengatakan bahwa sesama mahasisswa di kampus tersebut bersaudara, bahkan kebanyakan berkelompok menurut asal sekolah ataupun gengnya. Meskipun sudah mencoba ngobrol-ngobrol dengan beberapa orang, tetep aja pas tes  kesehatan dan TOEFLE aku ngga dapet temen, huhuuuu…

Iiiiirrrriiiiiiiii banget ketika itu ama masku yang udah keterima di Jogja.. hikshiks

Alhamdulillah sekitar bulan Agustus kabar baik itu pun datang. Aku  lolos SPMB J. Karena waktunya mepet, aku pun segera nyiapin segala keperluan untuk di bawa ke Jogja nanti, karena kemungkinan besar bakal langsung nge kos. Termasuk ketika itu ngurus administrasi pengunduran diri di PTN Surabaya, untunglah uangnya dikembalikan 70%. Nggak apa-apalah, yang penting udah keterima di Jogja.

Ada banyak suka duka yang telah kulalui selama kuliah di kota pelajar ini, dari nangis sehari semalem karena ditinggal pindahan temen kos (maklum dia temen kos satu-satunya karena kamar kosnya cuma 2), muter jalan mpe setengah jam cuma buat cari makan saking ngga ada kerjaannya, nonton film hantu di kosan masku sama temen-temen terus tereak-tereak ngga jelas, tiduran bareng temen-temen kaya pindang kepanggang di kosan masku buat nunggu kuliah siang, ikutan MCC mpe kehilangan waktu maen bareng temen-temen dan ngerasa terasing di dunia perkuliahan karena saking seringnya bolos, dateng ke acara dies natalis kampus cuma buat dapet makan gratis hahaha, nonton Club Eighties mpe jam setengah satu tapi ngga bisa pulang gara2 ban motor temen bocor dan akhirnya terpaksa menginap di warnet, sampe akhirnya ketemu dengan pujaan hati :malu:…

Waaaaaah, kalo dipikir-pikir banyak sukanya. Aku juga salut sama orang Jogja, selama di sini udah sering ditolongin orang. Yah meskipun kecopetan juga sering. Tapi ngga apa-apa laaah, kan diantara rejeki kita juga ada rejeki orang lain :)

Yogyakarta… Kota  seribu kenangan… Ragaku mungkin akan pergi meninggalkanmu, namun jiwaku akan tetap ada di kota Jogja tercinta…

Shinta, Merry, Alam, Dicky, Tiva, Ami, semuanya, dan terutama Sayank, I'll miss u all..

For my special one ♥♥

How do I get through one night without you, If i had to live without you, What kinda life would that be...

About 10months ago, we saw each other with no tought that we'd be together like right now. I couldn't describe what I felt.. happy, sometimes nervous, sometimes give a code just by eye contact *really want you to say 'Hi' like what you' did with  everyone, even it's like a hard thing to give you my sweet smile, my heart was beating faster when my eye cathed you..

Suddenly by the time goes by, we're sended text, you woke me up in the morning, and then someday you asked me to watch a movie ♥ Love it :* 


Feb, 25th 2010 00:00 am
(Crazy Thing)
in the middle street (Ring Road Utara), for the first time you say I LOVE YOU. I did nothing, just standing in front of you, stupid face, said nothing.. Hufth.. Did you know how happy I am? You've just said 3 words that I've been wanna hear for 1 months since we're so closed.
Honestly I confused, were you the person I always wait? But you're always there when I need someone to talk, you always there when I'm not on my mood, and your patient..

Love is a unique thing. It can makes us fell happy, smile altought with no one, just see his text in our cell phone makes us smile and than laughing. But, we don't know suddenly our heart can change , feel sad, angry, or crying at the same times. And then we realise, that it just caused : WE MISS HIM